John LaDue says when he was crafting a plan to kill his family members and bomb his high school a couple of years ago, he saw his plot as a path to greatness.
But in his first interview since spending nearly two years in jail and treatment programs, LaDue tells the Waseca County News it was "a very bad decision" to begin stockpiling explosives to carry out his plan.
LaDue says he agrees with the evaluation of therapists who say he suffers from depression, is narcissistic, and has an obsessive compulsive disorder.
But he tells his hometown newspaper he is not taking any medications nor is he getting any professional help, saying of therapists: “I don’t doubt their credentials at all, but I think they’re wrong. I think I know what’s in my best interests.”
"Don't give a crap whether they like me"
After pleading guilty to possessing explosives, LaDue served 21 months in the Waseca County Jail and in juvenile treatment centers.
The Waseca County News says there was some anger in the community when LaDue was released to serve his probation at home and then last month opted to end his probation, a decision that means he now has a felony record.
LaDue tells the paper people have a right to their opinions and he's not trying to win them over, adding: "I’m not too worried about that. I don’t really know people here so I don’t give a crap whether they like me or not."
Separately, though, LaDue told the News that when he's encountered former teachers in Waseca they've been cordial and said that means a great deal to him.
Focused on school, employment
Looking back on the violent plans he outlined in a journal and the money he spent accumulating bomb-making materials, LaDue tells the Waseca paper: " It was, of course, ridiculous and unpleasant. Yup, I’ve wasted a lot of time and money. And yes, if I had my options to do it over, I would not have it happen.”
The 19-year-old prefers to look ahead, though, and for now he's looking forward to welding classes and eventual employment as a pipefitter, he says. “My main priority is to just get on and have a successful future,” LaDue tells the News.